What am I to do? I'm always depressed, I don't feel my life going anywhere. How is my baby going to be happy if I'm not. Especially having nothing, how can I provide for my child. How can my own child be able to love me if I am who I am? I don't know what to do. It's hard to set my mind and acknowledge that I have no one. I'm poor and homeless. I don't know how I'll make it in this world. I don't want to give up my child, but what can I do?
I'm a worthless nobody. Who wants a mother that is a worthless nobody? How can I go on. I try and try all the time, my best is not good enough. I'm only a failure. I failed to be a good girlfriend, I failed at everything, like school and work, and I'm bound to fail everything else, like being a mother. I just don't feel anyone cares, I'm always pushed away. Even at times I feel lonely, I try to talk to someone, but I'm always shut down. I feel alone, unworthy of love and happiness.
Why can't I be someone? Anyone but myself? I hate myself and the life I live. Why didn't God just take me when I tried killing my self? Why make me miserable? I was bound to be unhappy I know, ever since what happened with my dad. I wish this was all a horrible nightmare, but it's not.

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and go see your doctor if you haven't.
You are where you are. Accept that. Once you do, you can decide where you're going.
ReplyDeleteIt's not just you anymore. You are responsible for another life, a responsibility you might not be ready for. Get ready.
You have to concentrate on you and your baby right now. You have to heal yourself before you can deal with these relationship issues, i have no idea how you must be feeling right now but if you dont love yourself, how can you expect someone else to love you? love your baby, love your life.
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